brenda

2011-09-29T03:37:00.002+08:00

i think i'm getting really sensitive towards death.

it kinda turn into the soft spot of mine.

I do not want anyone to leave like how she did again.

It's so cruel.

The thought of anyone dying is simply freaking me out.

Though i'm kind of immune to the feelings i had, but i still can't accept it.

Tears are free, i have unlimited supply of them, but i do not want to use them.

2011-09-14T01:17:00.002+08:00

okay i'm bored. so yeah, i'm gonna come out with a list of things/places i wanna go or do with my special someone.Or show Luo! \m/

1)Zoo
2)Underwater World
3)Universal studio
4)Henderson Walk to Henderson wave
5)Botanical Garden
6)Singapore Flyer
7)Punggol Park
8)Sentosa
9)Marina barrage
10)Marina Bay sands
11)Pulau Ubin
12)Bird park
13)wild wild wet and escape theme park
14)Phuket or anywhere out of singapore!
15)No more , SINGAPORE IS BORING!

And here is a list of things to do with him
1)tanning
2)prawning
3) go for massage with him
4)go drinking with him , just the both of us.
5)go high tea with him
6)good dinner with him
7)cable car ride
8)cycling /rollerblading
9)fly kite
10)ice skating
11)go clubbing with him (hit every single clubs)
12)boat trip on singapore river!
13)sheesha with him! hahahaha

2011-09-13T23:37:00.002+08:00

OKAY THIS BLOG POST IS SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO BRENSON KOH!
i felt really sorry for not wishing him happy birthday on 5th september and i only realise it was his birthday until today when @thomasup talked about it.
I'm really so sorry brother!

I hope you had a great day on your birthday with your beloved!
i've known you for around 2 years?
is it? oh man i can't really remember.
But yeah, the first time we met was in starbucks! at great world city! i think? oh my god, i really can't remember. forgive me k brother? i really have a bad memory!
can't believe time passes so quickly!
it amazing that both of us became like siblings because of our names!
Brenson & Brenda ! hahahaha
its really cool though.
You've been really a good brother as well as a good friend !
why do i say so? hahahah even though we don't meet all the time, you actually bothered to call me , or we will randomly video call each other just to talk about anything! i really missed those times that we would talk to each other on msn and talk rubbish! hahahaha and you also bothered to plan meet ups with me ! and thats really sweet!
I really hope this bond between us will last forever and ever!
once again i'm really sorry okay?
But yeah.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BRENSON GOR GOR! <3

and both of us still do not have a individual picture together yet! this is ridiculous! THE NEXT MEETUP K!

[HQ] 羅志祥-一萬零一夜【MV】

2011-09-12T21:55:00.000+08:00

2011-09-12T21:51:00.003+08:00

Here are some pictures from the phuket trip. The rest are all up on FB! hahaha but i think you must be friends with my auntie all then you will be able to see . so yeah.

Its nice to be around with your family members.
Never a bad thing .

羅志祥-美麗的誤會【MV】

2011-09-12T21:11:00.000+08:00

Phuket with family

2011-09-10T02:27:00.001+08:00

Alright I just came back from
Phuket not too long ago . It was fun I guess ? But there's still emptiness .
I think I will just post the pictures up in the next post . Probably on monday or something .
Okay time to sleep . Goodnight .

Stem / Kuki / 茎 - Shiina Ringo / 椎名林檎 (cover)

2011-08-31T10:17:00.000+08:00

Defying Gravity (Stephen Schwarts Cover) - Inch Chua featuring, IanMan.

2011-08-31T10:13:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah , have i not mention about this youtube singer that i recently fall in love with?

She's really good! Alright, i personally feel this is not the best video. i will post another after this.Alright , i've decided to blog cause i'm done in retweeting on twitter and i have nothing else to do.

2011-08-31T09:22:00.002+08:00

Why there are so many problems for us to handle in life?

Why can't everything just stay the same forever.

Why are we created in the way that we have to solve every single problem we have in order to let us feel better.

Actually i did tell myself to cut posting emo stuff anymore, but i can't help it.

There is just too much to complain and be sad about.

Oh well, my goal in life has always been to stay happy in life no matter what kind of shit happens.

I think i did that pretty well, cause there's is hardly people asking me , 'hey brenda, are you seriously okay?'.

But what to do, even if they ask, my answer is still gonna be 'yeah, i'm fine.'

the image that i've been portraying is way too difficult to be changed.

So yeah, suck it up and live the life.

Changes, changes , its hard to implement you in life.

2011-08-27T03:19:00.003+08:00

I think it's too late for me to do anything.
honestly, i have never felt so upset over friendship ever.
i totally overlooked, and i can't believe i did not understand the cause of what we've become.
Now i do.
i realize how much i am taking you for granted, and how much i have lost.
I did not understand how important it was just to reply texts, or even to continue a simple conversation.
i felt like the worst friend that could have ever existed.
I should have been there for you, but whenever you need me, i was simply out of sight.How stupid can i get?
i have no idea, how important you were to me.
I thought forever could explain how important you were in my life.
But i guess, I've let you down, not once.
Why am i so dumb to only realize it until now?

why do i only understand how important that person was until i lost the person.
i regretted, i selfishly thought that you would be there for me forever, but i guess I'm not even worth to be treated like that.

i'm still gonna try hard enough. Cause i know you're worth my effort.
Even by the end of the day, things are not gonna return the same , i just want you to be happy, with or without me. Cause i really care and i really treasure this friendship.

i'm sorry to have failed you so deeply.

There's nothing i can do anymore?i really don't know how to salvage this. i'm just gonna keep trying. Do i even deserve a chance?

questioning myself so hard, i think i'm not worth to be treated well by you anymore.
i do not want to scar it even deeper .

2011-08-18T22:17:00.002+08:00

would you come back to life?
i really cannot handle everything that is happening to me.
I lost control over everything and i have no idea how to salvage it anymore.

i don't want to be bothered by him anymore. Why can't he see the point in everything. I have totally lost respect over him.
Look at my messages that he send me.
Everything is money money and money again.

Why don't he feel ashamed of doing all this to me?
I totally do not want to entertain him.
Call me cold blooded or what.
i do not mind giving money to him. But at least he should have some self control .
God knows what is he spending on? Woman is the only one thing i can think of?

All my life, i've given him too many chances.
Every single time i thought i see hope. But FUCK , it happens again and again.
Why can't you do your part as a elderly.
why can't you just control your own spending when you have so much income every month.

Who can i look for now?
Who can teach me what can i do?
who can i tell?

ARRRR FUCK LIFE!

p.s : why the picture like that? cause that's my life now.

2011-08-17T02:14:00.004+08:00

happy month , I guess?

Time is moving real quick , i couldn't even catch up.
Oh well, what to do?

Birthday was just another day without you, but thank god my family and friends is there for me to accompany me through the day.
Honestly, i really can't help but to think about you at every spare time i have.Everything reminds me of you. Prolly because you are too important ?

Sometimes , even when nothing happen, i would end up feeling sad cause i would start to realize the emptiness in my heart that i've not been facing .

So many things have changed but the fact that i still miss you can't be forgotten.

i told myself many times not to post any emo stuff anymore but i just can't help it.

2011-07-22T12:49:00.002+08:00

I miss you like mad.

But i don't know when can i tell this to you.
Life shouldn't be going this way.

There are so many so many things that i wanna do with you.
But i don't have any chance anymore.

i regret for not saying the last goodbye to you.
I regret for not treating you at my best when i had the chance to.
I regret not spending my entire day just to keep you accompany.
I regret not telling you how much i love you.
I regret not letting you know how much i don't want you to leave me.
I regret not hugging you tightly and making you realize the level of importance you are in my heart.

Why does life seems so unfair?

I can't believe that i've been living with all this for almost half a year.
I am pretty amazed by myself now.
Well. Let's continue with life.

2011-07-05T00:03:00.004+08:00

This post is specially dedicated to Felicia Natthita.

i have no idea whether you would read this or not but yeah.

i would like to thank you for being such a great friend all this time and i really appreciate it.
You've been such a good listener and a awesome adviser .
Whenever i have problems you never fail to give me all sort of solutions and make me realise my decision.

Thanks for always being there for me and always there listening to my complains and sorrow.

No words can describe how much i treasure this friendship between us and i do hope you know this.
I might not be efficient in replying you your texts but i promise i will try to change this stupid habit of mine.

Sometimes i might not be the one that you look for when you have problems,but i promise that i will listen to you whenever you wanna complain or just find someone to talk to . I'm so sorry that i always fail to give you good advice . You do know that I'm not one that give advice right? But for at least, i know that I'm more than willing to just listen to you and help you in whatever ways i can. Even if i couldn't even come out with solution , i will be able to give you a hug !Let me know , tell me about everything alright?

i don't know how many times i have to repeat all this to you but yeah i just want you to know, you will not be left behind by me. And you will never be forgotten by me.

i do not know whether if i did something wrong or i did not care enough, but i need to know alright?
i do not want things to turn into a insolvable problem, or even turned into a problem. I just want a a friendship that will never disrupt our emotions and instead we know that we'll always be there for each other, know about each other, able to know whatever either of us is thinking without even saying it.

Love you forever Fel. <3

2011-06-29T18:06:00.004+08:00

:) <3

After so many Emo posts, i guess this is the happiest post of the year !

When i thought i can live without you.

2011-06-27T16:17:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time since i teared when looking at the pictures we took.
I don't know whether i've became stronger or i'm simply immune to the feelings.
Everywhere i go reminds me of every memories we had.
Whatever i type or whatever i said has to be past tense.
Had
Been
Used to
When would i ever get the chance to say, i'm meeting you tomorrow? or what are you gonna cook tomorrow?

There's no time machine, there's no magical controller that can make me rewind back to the times that we shared wonderful memories.

I tried to spend my time not thinking about you, but whenever i do, it strike me so badly that i couldn't believe whatever that has been happening .

No matter how much i rant , how much i cry , how much i miss , nothing's gonna happen.
I do not believe in souls.I know you are no longer there watching me . But i just had to instill it into my mind , keeping you as a imaginary figure that is still protecting me.I had to do this, to keep my feelings from everyone else.
Everyone would believe that I've gotten over it.
But honestly , i have no idea.
I think i did not move on, is just that I've learn to keep this thought in a secretive place that no one would find out.

2011-05-25T16:10:00.001+08:00

天涼了　雨下了　你走了
　清楚了　我愛的　遺失了
　落葉飄在湖面上睡著了

　想要放　放不掉　淚在飄
　你看看　你看看不到
　我假裝過去不重要　卻發現自己辦不到

　說了再見　才發現再也見不到
　我不能就這樣失去你的微笑
　口紅待在桌腳　而你我找不到
　若角色對調你說好不好＊

說了再見　才發現再也見不到
能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉
說好陪我到老　永恒往哪裡找
再次擁抱一分一秒都好

你的笑　你的好
腦海裡　一直在繞
我的手　忘不了　你手的溫度
心碎了一地　撿不回
從前的心跳　身陷過去我無力逃跑

說再見　才發現再也見不到
能不能就這樣忍著痛淚不掉
說好陪我到老　永恒往哪裡找
再次擁抱一分一秒都好

2011-05-18T00:03:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday grandma.

I hope you are having fun at the opposite of life.
Making new friends and having a new family there.
Or maybe a granddaughter that would do a better job than me. :)
Who knows?

Though I can't accept the fact that you are no longer by my side, but i guess there's nothing i can do.
I'm immune to every feeling i experience.
I got mixed up between being happy and being sad.
All i know is that, i found out something that is impossible.
it's to get you back in my life.

2011-05-16T00:18:00.000+08:00

i hate myself.

there's no alternative.
i just need to refresh my life.

2011-05-16T00:08:00.004+08:00

2 more days will be your birthday.
But i have to understand that last year was the last birthday you could have celebrated.

i really wish to sing a birthday song for you.
No one really understands what is it has been living in my heart.

Emptiness.

i really wish time can reverse.
i'm having difficulty in living.

2011-04-25T23:27:00.002+08:00

i haven got enough of you.

Not anyone can take over the place you have in my heart.
But there's also nothing that can fill up the gap you left in me.
My life has been ripped apart.
My mind is too tired to even think about you.

The truth is, I'm dying to see you again.
The truth is, i will never even see you again.
The truth is, i hate life without you
The truth is, i feel miserable,pathetic and lost.
The truth is, i will never recover from this pain.
The truth is, thoughts of you will always be there haunting.
The truth is, i can never tell you what i want to.
The truth is, memories will always be there.
The truth is, i'm no longer the strong girl people know.
The truth is, i was never strong.
The truth is, it was you that gave me hope.

2011-04-21T14:36:00.001+08:00

BAMMZZZZ! 5 day MC !

2011-04-08T01:01:00.000+08:00

How long more do I have to pretend and act like nothing happen?

2011-03-30T16:00:00.003+08:00

i think no one else could understand the moral of our story.

i have so much to tell and so much to share. But there are so many restrictions that i've to face.
It's a torture to live without the people that care.Moreover, they are the ones that made you this person.
Regardless a better person or a screwed up one, you always thought they will be there for you.
Relationships are out of the question.And rejections are hard to understand and difficult to explain.
The people you want in your life would end up leaving and not look back at you.
Lies and excuses isn't the way to live it. But you didn't want to hurt them .

At the end , how many would leave and how many would stay?

P.S: Let me accompany you for the rest of my existence. I don't want to suffer so hard so bring me near to you and away from this place called earth.

2011-03-22T12:46:00.000+08:00

when can i learn to be alive without you?

2011-02-23T22:33:00.000+08:00

I hate myself , I hate living , I hate you . One more time , I'm just gonna leave you. You are forcing me to lose my mind ,as well as my life .

2011-01-29T00:44:00.002+08:00

i wanna drink this now now now!

Ut 3 in 2 weeks.Holidays in 3 weeks. HELL YEAH!
i'd need to get a job during holiday manzx.
my bank officially pronounce dead.
CUIIII

Life been so cruel to me, everyday my mind is in the blank state.
Year 2 is coming, 18 is reaching.
Braces are compulsory.
Love is unnecessary.
WOW, my life.

2011-01-22T14:17:00.003+08:00

Home is no longer my comfort zone.
i can't find the security at home at all.

i need to get out of it and just breathe in the fresh air we have out there.
But where is the fresh air?

2011-01-19T11:03:00.000+08:00

I'm tired already. PLEASE STOP.

2011-01-16T23:11:00.001+08:00

why i never read horoscope today, maybe it would end up a better day.

Yesterday | Today | Tomorrow | This Week | This Month | 2011 | More »
Various personal issues might be on your mind today, Leo. You could want to work them all out without distractions, so you may decide to spend part of the day alone. Responsibilities from the outside world might make it impossible for you to take as much time as you'd like. Don't let it get to you. Work out the matters that seem most pressing and save the rest for later

2011-01-16T22:32:00.002+08:00

Now my life so sad and emo. HOW.

brendaheng Brenda Heng

My thoughts can only revolve around you. If not i have nothing left.

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brendaheng Brenda Heng

i am really... sad.

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brendaheng Brenda Heng

RT @3inchlove RT @yourstoluv I wish I could bring memories back to life.

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brendaheng Brenda Heng

please don't start rolling down again.

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brendaheng Brenda Heng

without you , i'm just like a orphan

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brendaheng Brenda Heng

i had no one in mind to turn to when i was low, except you.

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brendaheng Brenda Heng

thinking about it, i never had bedtime story before.

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brendaheng Brenda Heng

i thought grandma's death will be the last time to cry.i was wrong.

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brendaheng Brenda Heng

cause i think i won't give a shit to you anymore, i swear.

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brendaheng Brenda Heng

i think my life without you will be so much better.

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2011-01-14T12:32:00.002+08:00

my life is fucked so badly.
i really wish to change it.
if only you were here.

please don't just come to my dream.Bring me off to that faraway place.
There's nothing for me to live for now.

I've been trying all sorts of ways but none worked out.
The torture i face is worse than death.

They say life is all about suffering,
So the world should just come to an end.

2011-01-09T00:13:00.003+08:00

Why do i always have to be so independent?
Why can't you do more than your part?
Why aren't you sensitive ?

I really hate to live this way.
Always trying to cover up the gaps we have in our relation,but the fact that it can't be filled up.
How can we salvage this? or should i say 'How can I salvage this?'
you don't care.
i wasn't even treated part of it.
i wanna have a proper way to live by with the right people.
Why do i always feel so left out?

So tired that i wanna be left alone , and no one can reach at all.

i need you to be by my side.
You've always been the one that is able to fill everything in my heart for me.
Now that you're gone, I'm as good as dead.
i living in suffering and sorrows everyday.
It just hit me hard with those little things that happened.

One day i would really go crazy.
i feel so difficult to breathe.
Please, just... take me away.

2011-01-03T10:44:00.002+08:00

i haven meet you in a long time.

Every night, negative thoughts brings me down to the emotional phase of the day.
There's a dead knot being tied in my heart.
They wonder why i do not wanna cut it away.
its all because I can't find that scissors that is suited for the knot.

There so much to tell but there's no chance anymore.
Choosing to believe in afterlife is what i'm left with.
Speaking to you in the images i left with.
Hoping my words would travel through it and find its way to you.
How much longer do i have to do this?
how much longer before i can be the normal me?

i could hardly remember how, to be happy.

2010-12-24T13:05:00.002+08:00

day 14

still like that.
Nothing has changed

2010-12-19T20:16:00.002+08:00

how can i get over the sadness that has filled up the emptiness in my heart?

i feel sick, i feel horrible, i feel miserable.
i can't move on.

I tried , so hard but no one believes it.
i want to share but i can't.
They judge , they scold, they don't know.
Things became so different after you left.
I'm living like a electronic device that was set just to survive everyday.

I don't want things to change, cause I'm afraid to get used.

people should just leave me alone.
Cause i no longer deserve.

2010-12-17T09:26:00.002+08:00

Day 7

Everytime i close my eyes, all i see is you.

Having troubles waking me up, using all sort of ways to wake me up for school.
Nagging me to go shower.
Asking me not to sleep late.
Telling me not to shower after 10pm.
Asking me whether the food you cook is delicious.(just waiting for me to say yes)
Nag and scold when i spent too much.
waiting for me if i reach home late.
Passing me pocket money though i spend too much.
laughing so loudly when watching drama.
talking so loudly and gossiping over the phone.
watching 'Ai' , and we just have to join you.
Bringing me along for your mahjong session and leaving me at the corner to entertain myself
we would Share packet of food , bring up the the double deck bus,and finish it b4 we reach your mahjong place.
Me consistently rushing you to go home if im tired
me playing with the cats,while you and grandpa would drink like almost every night in clementi
always helping me if grandpa scold me for nothing
scolding grandpa when he ask you for money
we would shower together whenever we reach home late.Me suffering using cold water while you use the warm water..because i don't want you to catch a cold, so i said i like.:(
Drinking with us in pubs .
And Love us , the greatest mother/grandmother .

But now, all i know is ,i could no longer receive incoming calls from 'Grandma'.

2010-12-14T22:13:00.002+08:00

Day 5

You really left me.
i know i had to move on.
But i really can't.
Give me some time ,grandma.

Dear Grandma,

Thanks for the wonderful 17 years you have given me. Without you, i would not have known who i am now.
I'm sorry for being stubborn and insensitive at time, quarreling with you knowing that i should be blamed.But i guess that was what that made our bond even stronger,grandma.
You are so important to me,so important that i could give up my life for you.
i owe my life all to you.
I really love you so much ,grandma.
I'm not really good at words,but i hope you understand.
you are always like a mother to me.

No one could love me like you ever did.
i thank god for taking away your sufferings.
i wish you will be healthy and happy at the faraway place.
Wait for me grandma.Cause in my next life , i still want to owe my life to you.
i know its not going to be soon,but i shall reserve you first :)
So grandma enjoy yourself now,before your naughty ,crazy Qin join you.

And Ah ma ,please bless ah gong a healthy life.
Cause i can't afford to lose anyone again.

Rest In Peace,my dearest Ah ma.
Your Qin will never ever forget you.

Living deep down in my heart. I love you.

2010-12-12T15:04:00.002+08:00

Day 3

I really miss you alot.
i can't bear to let you go .

i tried hard to not shed tears, holding on to it to keep you in peace.
Have god pass my message to you?

2010-12-11T00:43:00.002+08:00

Day 1
I'm lost without you.

i seem to have lost my balance in life, i could hardly recognise myself now.
Everything pass too quickly for me to take in.

But i know i've to let you go.

2010-12-07T23:28:00.002+08:00

As each day passed by,
God of torture take a little of you.
Weakness took over you , strength escaped.
There isn't anyone to salvage,
but Time of god did tried.
Thank for the time that is left for me.
All i can do is no longer enough,but it has reach its limits.

This is all i do not want to face in near future, but i know i had to.
You are the what I'm living for.
I love you

2010-11-27T13:12:00.002+08:00

What's after you, Cheers.

Been thinking about how life can be so miserable, sad and unaccomplished.
Its not easy ,like how people say memories stay in the heart.
Missing someone is lonely and depress and not just words said by people can help us get through it..
Having you to be tied up by thoughts of that person and never move on from that second while tears rolling down, knowing that no chance will be given .

Letting go of one that is part of you that make syou a different person,its hard.
Knowing that the person around you is reaching the maximum is even harder.

What can we do? but to believe god can grant us a wish.
Prepared to face everything, but you know it would strike you down no matter how.
What can i do or what will happen to me when you leave?

Who can be there when I'm in need?
Who will be supporting me whenever i face anything?
Who can hug me when i need security?
Who can nag me , when I'm out of control?
Who would quarrel with me , when I'm crazy?
Who can treat me like how you used to be?
Who can love me like you do?

P.S.Nothing can describe the fucked up feelings i suffer.

2010-11-18T23:16:00.002+08:00

They can't be replaced by anything.
Cause we are just meant to be together forever.

Be strong and united.
No matter what happen, we'll be there for each other cause we are fated to.
The love we share can't be compared.
In our hearts, this is always where we belong,hand in hand.

2010-11-14T21:00:00.003+08:00

Cause from this moment onwards, i've to learn to live by myself.

When you even tried to step in, i did not push you away.
But after you tried ,you left steps back.
You have no idea the torture.
10 years down the road , its never gonna be the same.
Me , but not you.
When you thought you can solve all this ,it forbids you.
Just answer my heart.Cause i think it's clear enough.

SHIT man. I've got Mathematics Understanding Test tomorrow.I've yet to study _l_
Blame no one but myself.
I lose weight.<>

2010-10-31T12:10:00.002+08:00

yeah, I'm a bitch.You're the saint.
cause i ruin you life. while i've my ruined life.

i've never really believe about god,any god.But now, i only can rely on you to give me hope.Please let her go through this.
I'll never want to live if she's gone.
Take me away if you wanna take her.

2010-10-19T23:04:00.003+08:00

you are the only one.

Cause I'm afraid i would lose you.
Leaving me without and motivation to hang on in life.
why life have to be so cruel to you.
I want to be together with you forever.
You are the only one in life that could give me the confidence in living.
I have yet to repay you,so please don't leave.
Stay strong and be cheerful.PLEASE i beg you.

God , please be nice to her.Don't take her away from me will you?

2010-10-18T23:12:00.002+08:00

I might not be significant to you, but you'll always be.

if you believe, you're the best without me.
I'll let it go ,boy. its over.

I'm so sick and tired of school.
But i'm so glad i have my friends to accompany me through this.

My FFMy cui My bitch My ybf< Eunice
My prets
They are not all, i've got so many of them that i can't live without.But its just for me to know :)

I wanna work.Please reply me soon.
I'm officially a broke teenage girl. with that amount of money i have, i will simply die. HAHAHAHAHAHA

i need to sleep now.

2010-10-17T00:38:00.002+08:00

i haven been blogging!
holidays have ended. School started. FML.

My new classmates all super quiet!don't like :(
i can't get use to the new environment! i miss W45B so much. i miss eating cup noodles and drink 3 in 1 milo in class.

now that in class its so quiet, time pass fucking slow i swear.i hope things will improve like in week 2?
new classmates that i know of
-Jessie!
-Susan
-Hui shan
-Steph
-Liting
-Jun Ming
-Danial
-Derrick

sorry i suck at remembering names, thats all i can think of. please start increasing. i'm suppose to have 24 classmates _l_

2010-10-01T00:16:00.005+08:00

i'm tired of life, i'm lost.
The things i want in life are those i can't get.
Those i wished i could understand ,i can't.

Problem that i wish i need not solve.
Death that i need not face.

_l_

I'm afraid to face whatever that is going to happen everyday.
Life is being a fucking bitch. I don't understand how to lead you, cause you are an asshole for making me like this.

p.s: yes i left, i wished i didn't but i can't overcome my heart.

2010-09-26T22:49:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna list out all the movies i wanna watch from now on
This is to make sure i won't miss out any.HAHAHA

1)Devils
2)Wall Street: Money Never Sleeps
3)Legend Of The Fist: The Return Of Chen Zhen
4)The Switch
5)The Other Guys
6)Dinner For Schmucks
7)Life As We Know It
8)Piranha

2010-09-22T01:17:00.005+08:00

Sometimes i find my life very miserable,cause i've nothing to blog about.
So this is what i do...

i started asking my friend, TH to help me come out with subjects to blog about.
AND he started telling me ideas.

this includes.

1)Ah Thiam says: *erm *hahaha *blog things that u find it funny today *when u on the way to bugiserzation *and on ur way backerzation

Brenda says: *LOL *nothing funnnnyyyy sia *hahahah

2)Ah Thiam says:
*LOL! fail *erm *blog wad u wanna to do today but nv accomplish *haha *cfm alot alot
Brenda says:
*ERM
Ah Thiam says:
*have? *don have?
Brenda says:
*erm *nah *only got one *wanna shop like siao *but no money

3)Ah Thiam says:
*hahaha *blog wad the 1kg have motivate u today
*HAHAHA
Brenda says:
*OMG *nooo

HAHAHA crapp, yeahh and then, WE STILL COULD NOT COME OUT WITH ANYTHING TO ABOUT.

So in the enddddddd, this crazy me decided on something

Brenda says:
*OKAY *i know what to blog about already *you ask me *questions *hahaha *then i answer you *ask everything you wanna know
Ah Thiam says:
*then *u blog everything on ur blog?
Brenda says:
*hahahha *yeah
Ah Thiam says:
*lol *wah *tats interesting!

And yessssssss,

i'm gonna answer every part and bits of his curiosity about me!

what are the 3 things u are most scared of?
Insects,mannequin and ANNOYING PEOPLE!!!!##$^%#$

How do u consider an 'annoying ppl'?
People that always talk at the wrong time, people that hasssss super low eq, people that are super smart -those that totally speak highly leveled subject thaat i can't freaking understand,people that Bitch at those lowly DIRTY CRUEL LEVEl-Total Bimbo Gossip

What was the most embarrassing thing that ever happened to u ?
Screaming in Cotton on(the shop), when my friend divert my attention from the nice looking jacket to the mannequin

Ah Thiam says:

huh
i don get it siol
ooh
okok
got it!

Brenda says:
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAA

Ah Thiam says:
i thought is a real cotton! hahah

Brenda says:
fail

Ah Thiam says:
fail la u!
super high pitch

Brenda says:
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA
scream la
my friend la
assss
i was like
ehhh
damn niceeee
this jacket

Ah Thiam says:
PS ttm!

Brenda says:
thennn my friend say
eh you see on top
nicer
then i what sia
then i look up
thenn OMG
i scream la

What is the most memorable event/things that u have came across?
Photos, any photos i come across in my com or anywhere.Cause they reminds you of what are the 'stories' behind it.

Event:Everything that happen in my life ..LOL

What are the things that u wanna improve on?

*how i look
*tryyyy not to be lateee
*stop eating like a pig
*Study be good girl
*stop wasting electricity like freee.

And he crushed my hopes by saying its impossible.=.=

what are the things that u have done and cause u to feel super ultra guilty after the incident?
refer to this :http://brendaheng.blogspot.com/2009/07/wah-im-freaking-disgusted-by-housefly.html

so sorrry fly.HHAHAHAHA.but you are still damn gross.

Thats allll for todayyyyyyy. We've decided to do a Part II:)
loook forward to itttt people :)

2010-09-21T00:26:00.002+08:00

Slow motion -Karina Pasian

I know That You've Been Calling Me,
And I'm happy that we met.
Don't think that I'm not interested.
I'm just playing hard to get

So much about this crazy game they call love
That I'm trying to understand,
So could you be my best friend,
Before you call yourself my man

Why can't I love you in slow motion,
Take my time,
Take away the pressure on my mind
Really get to know you
But rewind
Wanna love you in slow motion
Why can't I?

You seem to know just what you want
And I like your confidence
Some things a girl should never rush
Cause If you do you hurt yourself

So much about this crazy game they call love
I'm still trying to understand,

So would you be my best friend,
Before you call yourself my man

Why can't I love you in slow motion,
Take my time,
Take away the pressure on my mind
Really get to know you
But rewind
Wanna love you in slow motion
Why can't I

I'm too young for tears in the night
And it's to soon for this to be right
Don't wanna mess with your pride
The questions not when but why

Why can't I love you in slow motion,
Take my time,
Take away the pressure on my mind
Really get to know you
But rewind
I Wanna love you in slow motion
Why can't... I

2010-09-20T19:14:00.004+08:00

Went EAST COAST PARK for picnic on Saturday morning.

Grandpa's awesome sambal fried rice :)
My pastaaaaa :)
B's 'awesome' sandwich. ! hhahhahahaha omg so funny right... EPIC!

good news to share, despite the awesome food, i manage to lose another kg! omgomgomg i'm so happy.
I've been very self conscious with my weight recently,my family keeps saying that i'm fat in every family outing.
Oh well i shall continue to lose some more to my ideal weight.

STRESSS, i hate being fat.but what can i do? suck it up and lose weight.

2010-09-19T18:13:00.005+08:00

you held it in your hands once,but i think you've chose to let it go.

Not being able to be there was the regrets i live by.
Initiating does not belong to my dictionary when it comes to you.
The will was vulnerable while i live it up not risking it.

Emotions struck by. Now i choose to put it aside.

2010-09-17T01:53:00.003+08:00

would you be there to sing me your heart?

Watching the VMA now! awesomeeeeeee!
but why the hell is Dan Humphrey from gg over there? Fail.but i swear he look so much cooler with the beard! *wiggle eyebrows

2010-09-16T15:55:00.003+08:00

16 September 2010
Went to Universal Studio Singapore yesterday night!!! Suppose to reach there at 6.30 end up , we only arrive there at 8.00! why?
Because of this cui girl that don't wanna take photo!! 6.00 meet,6.30 leave house...

I only took like 2 ride in USS due to the lack of time. HAHAHAH well, it's okay cause i manage to take the MUMMY ride twice , which is like the 2nds scariest ride in the whole USS.. hahahha ..so yeah, i heard that the SHREK 4d show is awesome :( but i didnt get to go.. how sad. :(

well, i already have plans to go there next year, when all the rides are repaired and available for us! Especially the major ride!! the biggest roller coaster..

Program-mes coming up
> interview at Serangoon tomorrow
>Picnic this saturday
>Malaysia with B,V,K
More to come ..... \m/

i didn't go for jive camp!! hope glad,fel and the rest are enjoying themselves while i enjoying my tv at home :)

2010-09-13T23:10:00.006+08:00

As i've said, i will bring my camera aroundddddddddddddd this weeek :)

This is gladyssssssssssss my CHOPSTICK!
Cheston (liz kiss kiss shot partner ) at that corner
Jeremy
Limin , Felicia and Rebekah

Best shot of the dayyyyy!! \m/
Sherina and Liz

Teehui the sleepy ah peh.

HAD A AWESOME CHILLAX DATE WITH THE PEOPLESSSS!
BUT I'm down with a terrible flu, i think my nose is dropping!!!
i invested on a box of tissue paper already :(

anyway today's maths ut is screwedddd upside inside out up down \m/
crapp i can't imagine i have to study maths II for the next semester, it's gonna be horrible! but brenda will study okay? < i'll try
hoping that the same mistake won't be repeateddddd anymore.

alright i've to go sleeep now. YESS rest is essential for my health now.. HAHAHAH BYE.
more photos up at FB.

2010-09-12T13:53:00.004+08:00

Had bbq steamboat at home with daddy's on friday night << the korean style!
and
went for bbq steamboat last night with B! Awesome pleaseeeeeee, be jealous of me!
Eating bbq steamboat for 2 nights straight \m/
oh yeahhh i also had sakae sushi on thursday night with the VK and B!
GOOD FOOD GOOD FOOD COME TO ME :)

well didn't any photos, i should start bringing my camera out for a walk. AHHAAHAH and not lying around at home.
From Tomorrow onwards, i hope i can post up pictures for the entire next week's post alright?

i manage to lose 3 kg for the pass 2 months.Still working on it though.
Eat well, eat with care, eat with control!
this is what i did to lose that 3 kg!

Eat well
Continue to eat every 3 meals of the day! you wouldn't lose extra if you eat a meal less and spam food in your next meal.

Eat with care
Knowing that starch will convert straight to fats, CUT IT DOWN!
Well knowing that vegetables is super healthy, JUST SPAM! you won't gain weight for that.
Cannot resist potatoes? just think about the effect of it turning straight in fats once you swallow it down!
HHAAHHAHA cut down on potato chips too.

-if you step into any western food stores,Choose teriyaki chicken instead of fried chicken fillet!
-when you are enjoying your kfc, don't take the skin! but if you want< know that the skin is the best part, you can eat like a big piece of chicken with just a small skin.

Eat with control
Remove half of the bowl of rice, when you see more, you will finish more ,partly because you don't wanna waste food << also because you are not full yet and you can still eat. RICE is DAMN FATTENING! its all CARBO!so eat less!!! take more of the dishes instead of the rice! :) it works!
- i heard from my friend F, she say drink a bowl of soup first before you start eating.Maybe it can helps you feel fuller? no harm trying so go try! why not eat an apple first.. ALSO CAN! alright i will try it.

BUT, not only changing your diet can help you lose weight! you have to burn it off!!!

You don't have to go all the way to gym to exercise,neither do you have to go to the pool or the running track to burn the horrible fats!
JUST DO EVERYTHING AT HOME!

-Blast the club songs at home!start to dance like you never had a chance in club! try out all the pro moves those dancers do, looking at the mirror and get it perfect!But dance it with powerrrr! < so you can perspire like mad.
> you can show off in your next club outing
> you can be more flexible!
>you can burn a lot of calories!!!!!!! \m/

extra tip : you can switch off the fans you have. Open the windows big for air ventilation!

-Do high jumps!back kicks!sit up! crunches!
> all for 30 secs and 3 repetition!
> confirm plus chop! you will burn calories.

-skipping rope and hullahoop < don't know how to spell
do it while watching tv! you will end up forgetting how much you did!and not feeling SUPER tired after many timeeeeees!

2010-09-11T01:54:00.004+08:00

how does it feels like when you fall for someone?

i kinda forget how it feels like.

Looking at him from a far, waiting for him to look at you.But when he replied the eye contact, you will look away showing him the ' i'm not looking at you just now '.

When he deliberately teases you, making fun of you, giving you nicknames, making you feeling so attached to him.

When you tried to take a picture with him indirectly with all your friends , looking at the picture a dozen time, as if you took a picture with him PERSONALLY.

Trying all your best outfits , messed up your wardrobe the night before the date with him, making sure that you look good .So that he will either say its pretty or simply no comments.

Asking all your best-friends about him, but actually you just want them to ask you if you like him and then you reply insist a NO.

Hoping that one day he will make a move and drop you a text,saying 'hey guess who am i'?

Saying 'whateverrrrr' with a smile after losing in a debating session with him

A feeling of your heart exploding, when he holds on to your hand, not letting you hit him cause he keeps making fun of you.

Acting like 'enemies' in front of your friends ,but you also don't know why?

Awaiting for his text all day long, and when there's none, you will type 'ehhhh im bored!what you doing?' in your phone, struggling whether to send or not!

When online, msn-ing and listening to music.Changing to the coolest songs at your itunes (but lowering down the volume making sure he can hear whatever you say and you don't have to unglamly say 'HUH' when you can't hear him) when you see his call on your phone.

Asking about his previous love life

Hoping to meet him every single day

and

Hoping for a day when he ask you to be his girlfriend.Feeling awesome great and wonder what's gonna happen after the day you agreed.

seriously , is there a perfect definition for love?

2010-09-08T23:52:00.004+08:00

Barely remember how you look, they are diminishing from my memories.Wondered if you ever walk pass me not recognizing me,but i don't wish to know.The vibrant crayons, the cups, the times we had with the desktop games was the only good memories left with me. The silly me often tried checking out your life,but leads no avail.I can no longer remember your face anymore,they are dissolving from the shots of time.Even if you passed me ,i would have walked away.A stranger , i am always curious of. Leaving without strains in heart and forwarding to the end.Connections was gone,blame on my ego.
Regret is all that is left,nothing else.
Would you come back in near future? or retain the memories and never looked back?

Where are you?

2010-09-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

Could you be my best friend ,before you call yourself my man?

I hate exam periods, they make me gain weight and they ruin my life.
Science and Maths left , but i've not studied for both.And science is tomorrow morning.
Well, yeah.

i hope to go for steamboat tomorrow, hopefully the barbecued one cause i want to eat buttered ENOKI!alright its been a long time since i upload photo abouttttttt my lifeeeee. HAHAHA so i shall try to take photos if I'm gonna go steamboat.

Okay emo one corner time.BYE

note to self: please study hard,since you are not smart.

2010-09-07T19:23:00.002+08:00

Blames put on him,
while mistakes made by me.

2010-09-05T23:16:00.001+08:00

http://theshoesinc.com/popup_image.php?pID=617
i like this pair, who wanna buy for me???? :)

2010-09-04T20:20:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna spend my Saturday night with mickey tonight.

Wanted to go qs/je library to study but end up...

went back to RP to study today with B.
i think i should go back to study more often cause i managed to finish one module in 2 hours!!omg, amazing right. I'm kinda turned on<(not literally of course) by the lights they have at those study tables.It's super awesome and you can find plugs at anywhere.
I should really consider going back there more oftern during my exams in future.
Gonna be very very busy next week due to the stupid UTs i have.

out of timeeeee, I NEED A JOB BEFORE MY SCHOOL STARTS AGAIN.

I have yet to accomplish so many things that i plan beforehand.

Before my 18 birthday,
i want t0 be a changed brenda.
don't think anyone would know what kind of change, but we shall seeeeee okay? so people must looook forward okay?

Grandma's cancer cells is coming back.I'm kinda worried for her.
i really hate this sentence people said because its so true.
In Singapore, it's easy to die, but it's never easy if you fall sick.

2010-09-01T00:51:00.002+08:00

Falling for him all over again

seriously, i find him damn hot, i don't know why.
HAHAHAHAHA. In this show he also damn hot!! hahaha anw it's quite a nice show. go watch okay?

anyway i went back to CWD today. gotten my Certificate and testimonial , like finally ! =.=
Alright happy teacher's day!

2010-08-23T23:58:00.003+08:00

i still think that the Spanish guy i took with is damn hot! \m/
he was just barely 2 meters away from me today at the spectators stand! my eyes couldn't stop looking at him!yeah he's hot la. :)

ANW,
Yog was like a total mess today.. commands and instructions given is SO NOT CLEAR! make us so pissed off.
But luckily other than that, it's pretty alright. i HOPE there will be CE points for us in RP, so that i need not go for talks or rubbish la!
AND AND the dinner provided tonight was not too bad compared to the other days! prolly because of the complains made by the volunteers < never to forget out characteristics of a singaporean

took photos with the female athletes from CHINA! they were the gold medalist!
(Y)
but i shall not post the photos cause they look awesomely ugly. HAHAHAHAH
well, i wanted the AUSSIES to win.
Din't get a chance to take with guy from GREECE, he was busy taking out the net from the basket. i don't know what do you call that.HAHAH yeahh like cheapskate ttm!

2010-08-22T01:05:00.002+08:00

SPAIN NUMBER 7!!!!
he's so hot i swear!!!!!!! the only athlete i took photo with :)
HAHAHA i mosaic my face cause it's damn CRAPPY! :(

2010-08-22T00:34:00.006+08:00

i have no idea whats the theme for all this photos, but i think its awesome.
see how i change throughout the year.. so amazing!!!

2010-08-16T18:23:00.001+08:00

i cut-ted my hair even shorter!now i'm waiting for my fringe to grow longer and then i will rebond it and dye it darker!

i think i'm turning into a TAU HUAY fan!!!!! and i found my tau huay buddy already.. Soon will be TAU HUAY MARATHON!!! \m/

2010-08-12T14:08:00.007+08:00

today will be the last OB lesson,
i have yet to present and it's gonna be damn cui!

Shucks i hate ob, there's so much to learn!!

Anyway, i realized i didn't blog about the awesome birthday celebrations i had.
i celebrated my birthday all the way from Wednesday to Sat! which is 5 aug to 7th! i swear its damn tiring! but oh well, i enjoyed myself.
4 august was a blast!
My classmates and i were tonning at J's house, i had a surprise party from them!!i can't post the pictures up here cause they are all damn unglamorous!! hahaha and its privatized in FB , so sucks to be you!
We drink-drank-drunk till the next morning!L was damn funny as she started browsing the books at J's house and looking for her dad's name in YELLOW PAGES!

this was what she said in twitter to me:
i knew what i was doing lor. i just couldn't control it. haha

damn funny ttm!
so we actually ton till 5 august morning! i reach home at 7 and i slept till 1!
i met my ah lian friend at vivo city! hahaha!

V!
Yes she bought me a KS pouch!together with ah kian! love them so much!! :D:D:D!
We ate,chill and chat at the sky garden there and we saw a horny couple making out there,damn gross, i shan't elaborate.

I had to use one hand to light up the candles and the other to cover, the wind was damn strong.
it wasn't successful so i just leave the lighter lit up and blow .

V don't know how to roll the California roll but i'm the pro!

HAHAH yup,we went home after that.
i had steamboat at home and uncle M and auntie J bought me a birthday cake!
yeah i had the cake and after that i went out again!
went to P street and join my auntie for drinks,
i was drunk! i swear! i couldn't really remember the exact detail of that night, but i know i didn't do any wrong things! hahahahahahaha! alright okay lame.
hangover like siao the next day, i went out with H,P,and one more i can't remember his name.
Went to marina bay sands to see see look look, i was damn freaking tired! went to eat stingray! and H got me a LFC SHIRT! CHIO LIKE WHAT! \m/

left my camera at J's place so i didn't get to take any pictures with them:(

went home and met W downstair, W bought NYDC cheesecakes for me! damn nice!

So Saturday i went out with W , when my Hangover is gone! went to watch salt, quite nice. and we went to eat at the white dog's cafe .

that's about it i guess! hahaha okay, i shall go home now! bye people!

2010-08-10T11:06:00.002+08:00

therefore i conclude,maths is boring !!!

2010-08-09T23:31:00.004+08:00

i lost track of time when I'm with you,
but when you left, i lost track in my life.

2010-07-29T20:41:00.002+08:00

honoring the words i've said,
waiting for the right answers to my heart.

2010-07-29T18:07:00.002+08:00

Chio ttm right?
if anyone would to propose using this ring i will definitely agreeee uh! hahahahaha
there's a secret compartment some more, then ask them to crave like
B, my love kept within
loves,______

WAH MELTS!!!!!!!!!!

2010-07-27T22:22:00.003+08:00

in a miserable state, when you are left with no choice, but to live each day. Waiting for it to happen instead of making it happen... not knowing the 'it' . But details were clear enough.

you couldn't decide and you know you have to.
there will be no alternatives,
knowing that whatever step you made,
you've got to let go of one.
cause this is simply life.

you might not know the agony i've faced,
but i know there's something hiding from me.
the curiosity in between,
caught up the ironically heart.
widen doubts and choices was stilled.

letting the day drop pass leaving a note answering to my heart.

2010-07-26T13:48:00.005+08:00

I'm having maths now, so i've decided to blog.
I'm SO BORED.

i thinking of braces.

2010-07-21T23:41:00.002+08:00

EPIC FAILURE!

i totally forgot to bring my laptop to school today!
What the heckkkkk?
i was like on the way to school and when i reach dover, something is amiss,HOW COME I CAN SMS using both my hands?!?!
When normally i have to carry my heavy lappy and only 1 hand is free for me to sms.
LOL its was damn epic!

i think its the karma period for me now.

FIRST is the pimple
NOW, i REMEMBER laughing at someone for being lame not bringing laptop when studying in RP, KARMA!

2010-07-19T18:59:00.001+08:00

Helllo PEOPLE!

EPIC IS THE NEW CHIO!

2010-07-19T18:42:00.004+08:00

I miss bitching with MEL,SHE-LA,MINGMING AND BASYAR !
sometimes,i just hope that we can still be together and doing all the nonsense lame stuff like how we used to.
Playing bingo in Physics class, Bitching about anyone we see in the canteen,rushing to the canteen to get the food, cutting queue like coool people (it's a jintai-an's thing) , and slacking during free periods.

Those days were so awesome!We had fun and laughter like EVERYDAY!

2010-07-18T17:44:00.003+08:00

10 years from now i wonder.
messed up,

the problem is not you, it's simply about me.
I can't decide.
And i don't have the guts .

i've decided to put up references,
http://weheartit.com/entry/3051474

2010-07-14T22:38:00.001+08:00

hello people ! tmr is my last ut!
and the feeling is AWESOME!
but now... i've yet to study for it! LOL.
SO yeah, im gonna study now.BYE!

2010-07-11T21:01:00.002+08:00

i can be strong girl whenever i have problems, but when it affect our friendship, i can't.

2010-07-11T20:51:00.001+08:00

i've decided ,to speak up to you if you try again, cause i think that when i do, you will lived on much better, i guess?
afterall, i really do wish that just friends that is there for you will be where we'll be heading towards.

but if you think that i can't be worth to be friends with anymore or whatever it is, like you've said,no worries.
But i'm not like what you think,not going to clarify but you know me.

since i'm the one that cause this for you, i will help you get out of it.

2010-07-11T17:32:00.002+08:00

OK i want to watch despicable me! so many of them gave good reviews for that movie.Shall watch it next saturday if its possible.
I can't wait for UT 2 to end. But i also don't want maths UT to come so fast.
i'm not prepared, seriously.
Why every year 1 from Rp must take mathematics /science!

okay instead of complaining, i shall go study whenever i have the time instead of blogging!

now i'll let fate decide, and simply live each day. Only till the decision is made properly for me, i'll try to fit in.

2010-07-11T00:55:00.000+08:00

will it be the way i thought it will be?

2010-07-08T19:15:00.002+08:00

i ' hearted' all the gadgets that i have!
awesome much.

RUIN-AGE.
why so some people just needs to be bastard to ruin people's life even after their relationship have come to an end?
i simply don't get this kinda people, why they can't just get a life and seek for the next better one.
:( i'm seeing so many of this bastards around disrupting my friend's life.
But why can't we girls be more smart enough to make sure they do not destroy your happiness ?

You need much time to handle a relationship for best,
i love you doesn't mean anything.

2010-07-01T23:32:00.004+08:00

If hating me makes your life easier, by all means.
if gossiping about me helps you to bond with people,alright no worries.
If badmouthing me is your entertainment,sure why not?
if insulting me makes you happier,go ahead.
If being like an ass to me is fun,go get a life.
if you are not being you to me,GET LOST.

2010-06-29T23:01:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHHA I TOTALLY AGREE WITH LEMON!

WE SHOULD HAVE FIFA HOLIDAYS! once every 4 years!
NOT BAD RIGHT?
and ut2s is at the wrong timing manzxz! FAIL.
i started my revision.YES i'm not kidding.
i think nobody will believe, but i'm serious! :D

i want to watch spain vs portugal!!!
but i'm super uber tired!
i think like what hht say, i will definitely not wake up at 2.30 to watch!
BUT i don't want to miss that match either!

OKAY i don know how. NVM

2010-06-28T20:28:00.000+08:00

misleading post causing misunderstanding in people.(Y)

the thought of the upcoming UTs freaks me out,time passes so quickly when you are enjoying yourself .
But it seems so little when you need to wake yourself up and start to study!

Being nice,stop being a loser-ass.
Cause it does not bother me,no longer.
so by all means.

2010-06-23T00:10:00.002+08:00

not going to dirty my blog.
THANKS FOR THAT.

2010-06-22T23:19:00.002+08:00

i like it when everything i post is so misleading!
i'm like a emo girl deprive of love.

HAHAHAHAHAHH AWESOME.

2010-06-21T22:27:00.004+08:00

You've got to stop lying to yourself so that you can head on towards your life. It's not a very good idea to pretend, thinking that you've solved the problem, but you are just avoiding it.

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEzxz! awesome day to have,maths was pretty easy and i L4d2-ed thoughout 2nd break.DAMN SHIOK.
This saturday will be a damn long and tiring day.I've got so many events going on this saturday, is it a lucky day for everyone or something?

1)yog meeting( don't know want to go or not)
2)Shila brother's wedding.
3)Family/Relative dinner (at the same old boring place)
4)Rp friend's birthday celebration (bbq)

By listing everything out, it really shows me how tiring the day can be.(Y)

I'm not in a relationship,
not about to get into one either.

p/s:for me to know, for you to find out.

2010-06-19T19:51:00.003+08:00

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2010-06-17T22:24:00.000+08:00

i don't know if they still exist.
but i've got my reasons.

2010-06-14T23:27:00.007+08:00

This post is dedicated to my awesome friends of the day.
I was damn disappointed and sad.But they really manage to make me smile and cheered me up!

Melissa Tal.-My awesome bitch friend
been my friend for over a thousand years (kiddingluh)

She never fails to cheers me up with gossips and bitch talks, been through thick and thin with her.Though we are no longer in the same school,we still keep in close contact and never lose trust in each other.Always there for me no matter what trouble i face.I really treasure my friendship with her,LOVE HER TTM!
RANDOM: I JUST REMEMBERED I WILL BE YOUR BRIDESMAID :D HAHAHAHHA!

Ng Weiting

My awesome RP best friend
-know her through orientation camp.Amazed by how we came together and became this close. hahahha!

-Though we know each other for like less than 2 months, we seem like we've known each other for more than 10 years.Awesome friend to have, always damn ons one! :D and both of us = sibei cheerful no DULANS. hahahahha our friendship still got damn long one hor!
LOVE YOU!

Valerie Chiam

Senior of mine since secondary school!

never thought we could be this close! cause last time SHE VERY AH LIANS, i scared!
Always remind me to study study but she also same as me , slackkk hahahahhaha!!! i like (Y)
LOVE YOUUU TTM!

okayyy 3 more person to thanks. but will be damn short, cause i need to sleeep liaoooos,
so fast fast chop chop :)

Tan Kian Hwee
senior of mine too, never know how i met him and when. BUT WHO CARES! (Y) friend!
you know how he make me laugh today?

BY SAYING NB TO ME!!! WHAT THE HECK RIGHT!
hahahahah but it was damn epic! thanksssss kh! LOVE YOU TTM TOO!

Chua wei jie

senior of mine too, the ah dai in ns.

say wanna intro me hot and nice guys sia... not bad right?
hahahhahahahaha! but if its true, DAMN AWESOME!
LOVE YOU TTM TOO.

last one, can't find a (brenda not bad in the photo) PHOTO.LOL.
Lee xiao hui

first timeeeee he so nice to me!
always bastard me, but not for today! (Y) right! hahahahahah

OKOK!LOVE YOU TTM TOO!

CONCLUSION OF THE DAY: I LOVE YALL TTM! thanks for being there for me!
and goodnight :D

2010-06-14T22:02:00.002+08:00

thanks friends for being there.

i want to make it come true, and not just plain word.
JY brenda heng !

2010-06-13T20:18:00.001+08:00

WISHLIST
-Montblanc Wallet
-360gb Hard disk
-New bag for school :)

AWESOME! JIA YOU BRENDA :)

2010-06-12T21:18:00.003+08:00

Thanks for keeping me in the dark
Thanks for not telling me how you felt
Thanks for making your own decision
Thanks for giving me hopes

Thanks, for being you.

2010-06-12T17:38:00.000+08:00

AGREE MUCH!

brenda

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Phuket with family

Stem / Kuki / 茎 - Shiina Ringo / 椎名 林檎 (cover)

Defying Gravity (Stephen Schwarts Cover) - Inch Chua featuring, IanMan.

When i thought i can live without you.

Stem / Kuki / 茎 - Shiina Ringo / 椎名林檎 (cover)