I think it's too late for me to do anything.
honestly, i have never felt so upset over friendship ever.
i totally overlooked, and i can't believe i did not understand the cause of what we've become.
Now i do.
i realize how much i am taking you for granted, and how much i have lost.
I did not understand how important it was just to reply texts, or even to continue a simple conversation.
i felt like the worst friend that could have ever existed.
I should have been there for you, but whenever you need me, i was simply out of sight.How stupid can i get?
i have no idea, how important you were to me.
I thought forever could explain how important you were in my life.
But i guess, I've let you down, not once.
Why am i so dumb to only realize it until now?

why do i only understand how important that person was until i lost the person.
i regretted, i selfishly thought that you would be there for me forever, but i guess I'm not even worth to be treated like that.

i'm still gonna try hard enough. Cause i know you're worth my effort.
Even by the end of the day, things are not gonna return the same , i just want you to be happy, with or without me. Cause i really care and i really treasure this friendship.

i'm sorry to have failed you so deeply.

There's nothing i can do anymore?i really don't know how to salvage this. i'm just gonna keep trying. Do i even deserve a chance?

questioning myself so hard, i think i'm not worth to be treated well by you anymore.
i do not want to scar it even deeper .