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When i thought i can live without you.

Monday, June 27, 20114:17 PM

It's been a long time since i teared when looking at the pictures we took.
I don't know whether i've became stronger or i'm simply immune to the feelings.
Everywhere i go reminds me of every memories we had.
Whatever i type or whatever i said has to be past tense.
Had
Been
Used to
When would i ever get the chance to say, i'm meeting you tomorrow? or what are you gonna cook tomorrow?

There's no time machine, there's no magical controller that can make me rewind back to the times that we shared wonderful memories.

I tried to spend my time not thinking about you, but whenever i do, it strike me so badly that i couldn't believe whatever that has been happening .

No matter how much i rant , how much i cry , how much i miss , nothing's gonna happen.
I do not believe in souls.I know you are no longer there watching me . But i just had to instill it into my mind , keeping you as a imaginary figure that is still protecting me.I had to do this, to keep my feelings from everyone else.
Everyone would believe that I've gotten over it.
But honestly , i have no idea.
I think i did not move on, is just that I've learn to keep this thought in a secretive place that no one would find out.

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